emotions..

Why do i still care?? I know it is over and there is nothing i can do about it.. I told myself to stay away.. not bother but when i hear something wrong i STILL go all out of my way and try to help.. Am i just being helpful or are there lingering feelings for her?? i SINCERELY hope its the former.

Many times in the relationship i played with the thought of leaving it behind..somehow we are extremely inconpatible..but in another way we seem to be perfect for each other.. Time when i can't stand what is happenning anymore..i REALLY wanted to leave it behind but i keep telling myself to stick with it..it all will pass..Hence the fact that she not knowing that i feel this way about it.. a patient front is always put up.. ever tolerant but hey, a guy has his right for unsatisfactoriness right??

now that the relationship has gone through a bad patch she straight up told me that it's over..feelings gone.. i mean is that possible?? feelings gone just like that?? a part of me feels that she lost it a long time ago but stuck with me for god knows what reason.. but who's to say that its true? coz the answer only lies in the head of the huntress..

I really hope that i can move on first..before her that is.. sort of a machoism thing.. but as things look like now..she has moved on WAY before me..judging by my lingering feelings and her non-existant ones.. but there may be a chance that she has those feelings too.. (rather wishing it ain't i), but why do i hope she has those feelings too?? why am i being so redundant!!

SOMEBODY HELP ME!!

note: this is an extremely emo post..sorry if it doesn't make sense..i just need to RANT and RANT and RANT!! thanks for listening