Bad Times

it's been a while since i properly blogged..maybe its because i have nothing to express..or i suppressed it to the deepest part of my heard..to the depths or the Marina trench..i don't know...but what i can say is this is hardly the best times of my life..and saying that i am not enjoying myself now is a severe understatement..

Firstly my health..Oh god what about it?? God only knows.. i've been getting in and out of a situation that most of us understand as running nose..not the conventional running nose though..(before u guys say "CHEH! running nose only what..i oso got!) but the kind that runs at a speed that even Asafa Powell or Maurice Greene pale in comparison.. Fuck the snot doesn't crawl out..it SHOOTS out like a waterfall..fuckin hell..the tissue paper industry thrives nowadays coz of the situation that i am having..
What caused this illness?? maybe coz of my excessive smoking..i doubt it though..My awkward sleeping times?? i don't see ppl in America having the same problems? or is it my mental state..which i think most of the people know is not at the best state right now..What can i do about it??
ABSOLUTELY nothing i presume..anyone knows?? stopping smoking will not help running nose before all u health freaks jump on my back asking me to quit smoking..QUITING SMOKING GETS U RUNNING NOSE AND FLU..tried it first hand..no use arguing..

My luck has also taken a huge amount of battering..damn it..best example is my Internet Commerce mid-sems..FUCKIN HELL I STUDIED HARD FOR IT!! i failed by the way..the first FUCKIN time i ever failed in anything since i got into university..know what this means?? i WILL fail in this subject..FUck..dreams of going to Australia going down the drain.slowly flowing into the Straits of Malacca..seems that the way i prepared for the subject is totally wrong..i studied so that i can understand the points..but guess what the questions asked?? ALL FUCKIN MEMORY QUESTIONS..

example of a Q.. What is the model used by Royal Suns Alliance
HOW THE FUCK WOULD I KNOW..i don't even now what the hell is Royal Suns Alliance..


to make things worse..i am supposed to work tomorrow morning at PWTC for national level MAPEX at 10 am..
its 3.36am now and i am showing no signs of yawning..let alone sleeping..what am i gonna do tomorrow? sleep on the job?? yeah if i wanna lose the only good source of income i can find..

i'm in a shit hole i tell you. And i am not seeing signs that is gonna lead me out..GOD HELP ME!